hm.

hi.
i'm not feeling so well tonight.
i don't know why.
all i wanna do is just keep blogging or posting something. i don't care if it was important or not. well this is my blog so i'm free with it.
i just made something, a new blog &stuff, which is tumblr.
yea. i'm new with it &i have no idea what to do with that stuff. silly me.

so what should i do now?
i felt so lonely. where's my boy? he's fucking gone. he don't care about me anyway so why should i care for him?

hm. it's all gonna start with why oh why.

why do i have to love him so much even he doesn't even love me?
why do i have to care about him even he doesn't even care?
why do i have to listen to all his sorries even he never listen to mine?
why do i have to miss him even he never miss me?

or

why do i have to say 'i love you' but actually i'm not.
why do i have to say 'i care' but actually i'm never
why do i have to say 'i am sorry' but actually i don't want to.
why do i have to say 'i miss you' but actually i don't.

honesly, i'm confused. with his feeling off course. i don't know if he really love me or faking loving me. well who knows?
but this is seriously killing me.
just tell me, or leave me. now. before it's too late.
i'm begging.
please.

the talk;)

Boy: I need someone to talk to.
Girl: I’m always here for you.
Boy: I know.
Girl: What’s wrong?
Boy: I like her so much.
Girl: Talk to her.
Boy: I don’t know. She won’t ever like me.
Girl: Don’t say that…you’re amazing.
Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.
Girl: Then tell her.
Boy: She won’t like me.
Girl: How do you know that?
Boy: I can just tell her…
Girl: Well just tell her.
Boy: What should I say?
Girl: Tell her how much you like her.
Boy: I tell her daily.
Girl: What do you mean?
Boy: I’m always with her…I love her.
Girl: I know how you feel. I have the same problem…but he’ll never like me.
Boy: Wait. Who do you like?
Girl: Oh, some boy.
Boy: Oh, she won’t like me either.
Girl: She does.
Boy: How do you know?
Girl: Because who wouldn’t like you?
Boy: You.
Girl: You’re wrong. I love you.
Boy: I love you too.
Girl: So are you going to talk to her?
Boy: I just did.

pssst

Girl; Do i ever cross ur mind?
Boy; no
Girl; do you like me?
Boy; no
Girl; do you cry if i left?
Boy; no
Girl; do you live for me?
Boy; no
Girl; would you live for me?
Boy; no
Girl; would you do anything for me?
Boy; no
Girl; choose me or your life?
Boy; my life

the girl run away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and say 

The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why i don't like you is because i love you.
The reason why i don't want you is because i need you.
The reason why i wouldn't life for you is because i would die for you.
The reason why i'm not willing to do anything for you is because i would do everything for you.
The reason i choose my life is because you ARE my life..

XO,
Zahwa Samodra Putri

I LOVE MY MOM ♥

When you were inside your mom’s tummy,
your mom suffered the pain that you gave to her,
and you thanked her by kicking her all day long.

When you were 1 year old,
your mom celebrated the first birthday of you,
you thanked her by crying all day long.

When you were 2 years old,
your mom started teaching you how to talk,
you thanked her by saying ummmumumumumamamama.

When you were 3 years old,
your mom brought you to the park,
you thanked her by running around the pond, and chasing the ducks.

When you were 4 years old,
your mom bought you some toys,
you thanked her by breaking the toys on the next day.

When you were 5 years old,
your mom bought you a story book and read it to you,
you thanked her by ripping it piece to piece.

When you were 6 years old,
your mom sent you to the kindergarten, so that you can start making friends,
but you thanked her by fighting with your classmate.

When you were 7 years old,
your mom made you a very nice lunch for the first day of school,
you thanked her by throwing your foods around the class.

When you were 8 years old,
your mom handed you an ice cream,
you thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 years old,
she paid for piano lessons,
you thanked her by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old,
she drove you all day,
from soccer to football to one birthday party after another,
you thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old,
she took you and your friends to the movies,
you thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old,
she warned you not to watch certain TV shows,
you thanked her by waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13 years old,
she suggested a haircut that was becoming,
you thanked her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were 14,
she paid for a month away at summer camp,
you thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15,
she came home from work, looking for a hug,
you thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16,
she taught you how to drive her car,
you thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17,
she was expecting an important call,
you thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18,
she cried at your high school graduation,
you thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19,
she paid for your college tuition,
drove you to campus carried your bags. You
thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm
so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25,
she helped to pay for your
wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply
she loved you. You thanked her by moving
halfway across the country.

When you were 50,
she fell ill and
needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about
the burden parents become to their
children.

And then, one day, she quietly died.
And everything you never did came
crashing down like thunder on
YOUR HEART..

differences between friends &best friends

• FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”
• FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…” (Note, if you don’t understand this, watch The Ring. Then watch The Ring 2. Then watch Ringu.)
• FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.
• BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”
• FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.
• BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.
• FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”
• FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.
• FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.
• FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.
• BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”
• FRIENDS: Will help you move.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.
• FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.
• BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”
• or
• FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again
• BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!
• FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
• BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
• FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
• BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
• FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
• BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
• FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
• BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.
• FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
• BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”
• FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
• BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…
• FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you
• FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
• BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”
• FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
• BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
• FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
• BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
• FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!
• FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this :)

8 reasons why i'm single

1. because every good looking guy is a jerk.
2. every nice guy isn't good loking
3. every nice &good looking guy is taken
4. every nice, good looking, single guy is broke
5. every nice, good looking, single, rich guys is cheater
6. every nice, good looking, single, rich, non-cheater is gay
7. every nice, good looking, single, rich, non-cheater &straight guy doesn't have interest in us
8. uhmmmm, you.

to day

to?day. oh yea. today. how can i describe this? A-L-O-T-O-F-F-U-N maybe? oh yes. i had a lot of fun today.

started  at my house at 9 o'clock in the morning. my maid wake me up &reminds me that i have to go to Raseesha's house. oh yes. she really know me well. (dia bahkan tau kalo gue orgnya pelupa bgt, jd perlu dingettin) &than i had a breakfast, &told my aunt to drive me to her house.

i was actually just sayin' that i'm going to seesha's house. just go there. &don't go anywhere. you know what i mean?

i lied.

alright, it just my bad habit. i don't care anyway.

arrived at seesha's house

she opened the door, waved at me &say "hi zahwa" "seesha ada temenyaaaa" 


i immediately put my shoes off, come in &say  "hi tanteee;)"

seesha dateng, we're leaving. taugaaaakk? kita jalan dari rumah seesha ke DEPAN. lotau jam 11 in the morning sekarang panasnya kyk apa? like hell. ohmylord i wish i could have an umbrellas at that time.

whataday.

and than kita nyampe disana. nyalon, pulang.

secara kita ga modal, yaudah kita pulang naik taksi. -_-

&than kita nyampe kerumah gue, nyampe kamar. ngambil buku pelajaran, kesekolah. nyampe sekolah rame bgt ternyata lagi ada acara gidduu.
ke ruang library, mr nya gaada.we're stressed out! gamungkin kan kita balik lagi padahal udah panas panasan? gosh.
yaudah kita ke atas, ke lantai 2. ketemu mr siapa lupa gue yg jelas ngajar physic. (oh sir, i'm sorry i forget your name, but i wont foget you) -_- kata mr, mr galiat mr library.
yaudah kita ke bawah (again) ke bawah berharap ada org di front office. ternyata ada. yaudah gue bikin note. abs itu pulang.

we're save.

&than. kita ke tujuan utama kita, makin' videos! actually what we're gonna make is a parody. tp secara susah bgt, yaa we're gave up.
yaudah, kita cover song, it is price tagg<3 we love this song so much. psssttt don't forget to watchh! (SZproduction1) --> ke youtube, search nama itu. gampangkan?
alright back, and than we're edit that video which is really easy:$ and than upload that to youtube. (it take a very long time to just upload that one) makanya gue gatau masih nge-upload apa udah selese.

and than, we're play play and play, and finally kita buat music video! HAHA
dan gue yakin belom selese. sebenernya pengen nyelesein cuman ya gimana, udh malem, &gue udah dijemput.

dear parents, 
you're ruined my time. again. sincerely,
me.

dijemput? pulang. now i'm home.

tired.bye

XOXO,
Zahwa Samora Putri

randomness

kalo ditanya "lagi apa lo?" sekarang gue bakal bilang, perfect! i don't know what make it perfect.
sekarang? tiduran di sofa kamar nyokap, makan cake tiramisu sambil ditemenin sm hot chocolate. grrrr &most important thing! sambil nntn my favorite cartoon, spongebob squarepants<3 &one more thing, kmr nyokap lagi dingin bgt, ooooh what a day. &chatting with you, yes you. E. sm music jazz yang ada di ipod bener bener buat hari gue perfect.

actually, today i don't feel like doing anything.

&that's make me so damnfuckin' bored, makanya gue nyusahin org serumah nyuruh beliin cake, bikinin hotchocolate which is really yummy. bisa kebayang seberapa bnyk lemak yang ada di hotchocolate &tiramissu-_- but i don't mind it, really.

&tbtb, adek gue dateng.

oh crap! why the fuck is my sister doing in this room? oh dear sisters, you ruined my mood, again.
sincerely, 
ME. --orang yang lo ganggu mulu, tiap hari. gila. setres gue.

enough.

nah, sekarang gue bener22 disibukkin ngusir org. grrrr fuckyourdear.
back to our main topic,

UN selesai.
expectations; bakalan jalan22, buat video, having fun, sleep over, hangout with friends, go swimming, ke sc, relax, ga bakalan ada lagi yang namanaya bosen, holiday with family &others. yang jelas having fun.

reality; stay at home, get bored, kaki gue sakit sampe gabisa jalaaaaannn. that's whyyy gue gabisa ngelakuin those things. ahfuck.

can you imagine that? setelah belajar222, kan yang dimau ya having funnn, rite? but why life is so unfair? ;( yang ada gue malah stay at home, not doing anything. &worse, gue ga nntn jb's concert.

dear mom, 
please. i need a vacation. go shopping maybe? refreshing? oh crap, i really need it. maybe we can go to thailand so we can shopping together? just you and me. just two of us?
go have a candle light dinner with a whole family? i need it mom, as soon as possible. 
maybe drinking wine with daddy sure are fun thing to do. &go to the nightclub as you ask before? sure. 
i need it, i need a vacation. 
sincerely, 
me, your daughter.


enough. gue mau mandi, mau berendam nenangin pikiran.
bye.

XOXO,
Zahwa Samodra Putri

Doraemon

Dear Doraemon,

Jika kau ada di suatu tempat di sana, apakah di planet lain di mana Nobita tak lagi cengeng, atau sebuah dimensi tanpa makhluk bernama tikus, aku harap kau membaca ini. Aku ada beberapa permintaan. Mungkin banyak. Tapi kupastikan, tak lebih banyak dari Nobita. Jika kau berkenan, tolong izinkan.

Beri aku tv pengintai. Untuk selalu melihatnya dari jauh, agar aku tahu suasana hatinya.
Beri aku satu baling-baling bambu. Untuk terbang menghampirinya, saat dia tengah sedih.
Beri aku pistol udara. Agar bisa menembak orang-orang yang menyakitinya.
Beri aku senter pengecil. Untuk "mengecilkan" semua masalah  yang dihadapinya.
Beri aku jubah tembus pandang. Agar aku bisa selalu menjaganya, tanpa dia tahu.
Beri aku pintu ke mana saja. Agar saat malam tiba, aku bisa menghampirinya. Memastikan nyenyak kah tidurnya malam ini.
Beri aku mesin waktu. Cuma untuk 10 menit, aku akan ke masa 10 tahun lagi. Melihat apakah dia bahagia.



Doraemon, jika kau seperti Sinterklas, berilah aku hadiah keinginanku. Aku janji tak akan nakal. Aku mohon...

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