brought tears to my eyes

Boy: Hey, hun!
Girl: Hey.
Boy: I missed you at school today. Why weren't you there?
Girl: Yeah, I had to go to the doctor.
Boy: Oh really? Why?
Girl: Oh, nothing. Just some annual shots, that's all.
Boy: Oh.
Girl: So what did you guys do in Math today?
Boy: You didn't miss anything that great, just a lot of notes.
Girl: Okay, good.
Boy: Yeah.
Girl: Hey, I have a question to ask.
Boy: Okay, ask away.
Girl: How much do you love me?
Boy: You know I love you more than anything in this world.
Girl: Yeah.
Boy: Why did you ask?
Girl: *silence*
Boy: Is something wrong?
Girl: No. Nothing at all. Um. How much do you care about me?
Boy: I would give you the world in a heartbeat if I could.
Girl: You would?
Boy: Yeah of course I would. *sounding worried* Is there something wrong?
Girl: No, everything's fine.
Boy: Are you sure?
Girl: Yeah.
Boy: Okay. I hope so.
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: I would take a bullet for you any day, hun.
Girl: Really?
Boy: Any day. Now, seriously, is there something wrong?
Girl: No, I'm fine. You're fine. We're fine. Everyone and everything is fine.
Boy: Okay.
Girl: Well, I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow at school.
Boy: Alright, bye. I love you!
Girl: Yeah. I love you too. Bye.
 

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL
 

Boy: Hey, have you seen my girlfriend today?
Friend: No.
Boy: Oh.
Friend: She wasn't here yesterday, either.
Boy: I know. She was acting all weird on the phone last night.
Friend: Well, dude, you know how girls are sometimes.
Boy: Yeah, but not her.
Friend: I don't know what else to say, man.
Boy: Okay, well I gotta get to English. I'll see ya after school.
Friend: Yeah I gotta get to Science. Later.
THAT NIGHT
Girl: Hello?
Boy: Hey.
Girl: Oh, hey.
Boy: Why weren't you at school today?
Girl: Uh, I had another appointment with the doctor.
Boy: Are you sick?
Girl: Um, I have to go. My mom’s calling on the other line.
Boy: I’ll wait.
Girl: It may take a while. I’ll call you later.
Boy: Alright. I love you.
-very long pause-
Girl: *with a tears in her eyes* Look, I think we should break up.
Boy: What?!
Girl: It’s the best thing for us right now.
Boy: Why?
Girl: I love you.
 

THE GIRL DOESN’T COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE
 

Boy: Hey dude.
Friend: Hey.
Boy: What’s up?
Friend: Nothing. Hey, have you talked to your ex lately?
Boy: No.
Friend: So you didn’t hear?
Boy: Hear what?
Friend: Um, I don’t know if I should be the one to tell you…
Boy: Dude, just tell me!
Friend: Uh. Call this number, 433-555-3468.
Boy: Okay, thanks!
 

BOY CALLS THE NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL
 

Voice: Hello, Suppam County Hospital. This is Nurse Victoria.
Boy: Uh, I must have the wrong number. I’m looking for my friend.
Voice: What is their name, sir?
*boy gives info*
Voice: Yes, this is the right number. She’s one of our patients here.
Boy: Really? Why? What happened? How is she?
Voice: Her room number is 646 in building A, suite 3.
Boy: WHAT HAPPENED?!
Voice: Please come by, sir, and you can see her. Goodbye.
Boy: WAIT! NO!
 

THE BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM 646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. THE GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.
 

Boy: Oh my God, are you okay?
Girl: *silence*
Boy: Dear, talk to me!
Girl: I..
Boy: You what?
Girl: I have cancer and I’m on life support.
Boy: *breaks into tears*
Girl: They're taking me off tonight.
Boy: Why?
Girl: I wanted to tell you, but I couldn’t .
Boy: Why didn’t you tell me?
Girl: I didn’t want to hurt you.
Boy: You could never hurt me.
Girl: I just wanted to see if you felt about me the same as I felt about you.
Boy: Huh?
Girl: I love you more than anything. I would give you the world in a heartbeat. I would die for you and take a bullet for you.
Boy: *crying*
Girl: Don’t be sad. I love you and I’ll always be there with you.
Boy: Then why did you break up with me?
Nurse: Young man, visiting hours are over.
The boy leaves and later that night the girl is taken off of life support and dies, but what the boy didn’t know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time. She only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks left to live and thought that it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.
 

NEXT DAY   

The boy is found dead with a gun in one hand and a note in the other.
THE NOTE SAID:
 

“I told her that I would take a bullet for her, just like she said she would die for me.”

this is on my story, which is i just copy from google, but i just wanna share;)
 

i'm tired. i need a rest:&

I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to tell you mostly
I hate that I'm so afraid of everything
I hate that you’re the one thing I want the most but can't have
I hate that you let me go before I got even got to say goodbye
I wish that you would come back to me
I wish I were strong enough to say no to you
I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left
"I need to move on" says my head
"I need to hold on" says my heart
I envy her
I envy the fact you don’t understand what this feels like at all
I want to hurt you
I want to be with you
I want this nightmare to be over
I wish I could make things they were before you
I wish I could change time
I wish I could change you
I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me
I need you out of my thoughts
I need you out of my heart
I'm sorry I was good enoughI'm sorry I defended you when everyone else was right
I'm sorry I couldn’t make you happy
Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me,
for breaking me,
for not loving me

I don't know. but sorry, i......i.....still love you</3

I.......

You were the sun shining brightly through the day
If ever something was wrong, you'd make it better right away
But now you're gone, the rain is falling
There is nobody answering to my call
Every day I see you with a smile on your face
And it hurts deep down to know that I will be replaced
You were the best thing that happened to me, and the best thing
taken away
And every night as I lie crying, I wish you'd stayed
Because now I'm alone, and still in love
You're the only thing my heart is dreaming of

lyk seriously, you've been a part of me.

"wie die Hälfte meines Herzens geht auch mit Ihnen"

big thanks to; google translate for helping me making this;)


xoxo,
zahwa samodra putri \m/

lying to forget

"This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath

When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let him go"


I just learned about life, i just learned about letting go, &letting you go, is the hardest part :'(
honestly, i need you to stay. i need you to be here with me no matter what. because i feel so lonely. i need you, as always. &now you go. hard to believe, but this is real. i wasn't dreaming. he left me.


i want you back, i want you. i want you so badly</3


Xoxo,
Zahwa Samodra Putri \m/

you left me, i fail

"Words come
Eyes blink
Hands quiver
Pen moves
But then……….
Silence breaks
Thoughts shatter
Pen stops
Words disappear
Because………..
Out of nowhere
Your memory comes back
And once again
I leave the paper blank
Just because of your thoughts
Words never come
Eyes never blink
Hands never quiver
Pen never moves
And once again….
I fail…..
To fill the blank pages
of my life....."

i don't know, i just tired. tired of drama. i'm sick. sick of being "sick&tired"
if only i could go back to that day when.....forget it! i will never. hhh-_- i need a rest.
P.S; i still love you, please come back :')

Xoxo,
Zahwa Samodra Putri \m/

i need you

"The day when you entered my life,

has become my life’s best day…..

Many days come and pass away,
but this day has its own charm anyway…

You have changed my life completely,
and my love is growing with each new day…

Oh my love! I m incomplete without you,
don’t leave me alone for a single day…

Hold me in your arms tightly,
and make my every day a very special day…"

P.S; i made this officially just for you, ....rr....yy....

please believe me, that i will fall for you, i will do anything for you, just be my boy, &we'll be happy.
i promise.
mark my word, I promise.

XOXO,
Zahwa Samodra Putri

my eyes for you

I only have eyes for you
Hunderd’s of people pass my way
I see them, but I don’t …………………
Do you understand what I mean
I know they are there
The’re just not seen
No matter where I go
Or what I do
At a fast or slow
Only one person has my heart
I only have eyes for you
When we are together,
Just us two
Fireworks emploding in the sky
I wouldn’t see them
And, you know why
I only have eyes for you
You have heard this many times
I know
Look into a person’s eyes
but You are the only one
That can look into my eyes
And see the path ways to my heart
That path way belongs to only you
Whether we are together or apart
There was moment in time
When it all came together
I know this love was true
There will never be anyone else
Because
I only have eyes for you…..